At Hand

The question at hand,
is where do I stand?
Do I need total change,
or do I need to rearrange?
Do I need to walk away,
or is this where I should stay?
These are questions I need to ask,
then I shall set the task.
I need to be aware of what’s around.
Is there anywhere I’m bound?
I cannot run, nor can I hide,
not giving up even though I’ve tried.
Life seems to keep going along,
and I feel something is so wrong.
I sit and think and think and think,
and feel like I am on the brink,
of a great disaster,
that’s coming faster and faster,
of which I have no control,
even though God I extol.
How can this be?
I really need to see.